CANDY<33

2009-02-07T02:20:00.000-08:00

this blog, is DEAD.
if you are nice and fabulous(like me:D)
go here.

http://la-bellemorte.blogspot.com/

2008-11-06T19:03:00.000-08:00

i am so disappointed that my depression could just suffocate me to death.
but since there's a chance to turn things around,
imma going to take that chance.

2008-09-26T01:24:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MAMMA MIA :DDDDDDD
i love cheesy shows. they warm my heart

english paper : major screw up.

gimme gimme gimme
a man after midnight

2008-08-31T01:17:00.000-07:00

with great power , comes great responsibility :D

*mysterious grin*

2008-08-22T04:23:00.001-07:00

EMO D:
olympics going to be over soon .
and i so have not watched a single water polo match .
and i only managed to catch the last team of sychronised pair swimmers D:
gymnastics was good though .
EMOOOOOOOOO D:
iwannawatchthebestdamntourtoo .

i used to roll the dice
feel the fear in my enemies' eyes

2008-08-21T02:43:00.001-07:00

the skin is a little screwed up .
will change soon .
BUT ITS SO PRETTY T_T

2008-08-21T02:10:00.000-07:00

ALL SUMMER LONG

It was 1989, my thoughts were short my hair was long
Caught somewhere between a boy and man
She was seventeen and she was far from in-between
It was summertime in Northern Michigan
Ahh Ahh AhhAhh Ahh Ahh

Splashing through the sand bar
Talking by the campfire
It's the simple things in life, like when and where
We didn't have no internet
But man I never will forget
The way the moonlight shined upon her hair

[Chorus:]
And we were trying different things
We were smoking funny things
Making love out by the lake to our favorite song
Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking 'bout tomorrow
Singing Sweet home Alabama all summer long
Singing Sweet home Alabama all summer long

Catching Walleye from the dock
Watching the waves roll off the rocks
She'll forever hold a spot inside my soul

We'd blister in the sun
We couldn't wait for night to come
To hit that sand and play some rock and roll

While we were trying different things
And we were smoking funny things
Making love out by the lake to our favorite song
Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking 'bout tomorrow
Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long
Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long

Now nothing seems as strange as when the leaves began to change
Or how we thought those days would never end
Sometimes I'll hear that song and I'll start to sing along
And think man I'd love to see that girl again

[Repeat Chorus x2]

Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long
Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long
Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long
Singing Sweet Home Alabama all summer long

2008-08-03T00:16:00.000-07:00

HEY YO PEEPS .
i have been dead , but now , i am not :D *retarded smile*
its a BEEYOOTEEFUL sunday morning :D
afternoon , but you get the point .
yesterday was the preview for NDPPP :D
when we arrived at the holding area , we had to go through this security thing .
like so serious like that o_o
and jan was like , better not say the B * * B word ==
lame laa .
but never mind . I LOVE JANNN <3
than slack , changed , put facepaint .
keep smudging it . coz face itchy ~.~
peeps went crazy over COOKING MAMA .
not MAMA COOKING =x
they keep asking where the stylus is .
WENMIN cant on the ds =x
AHAHA .
ok la , i not so bad =x
and some other peeps keep seeing kenneth whip sakura's sorry ass
sadist .
than had DINNER ,
pizza hut . dun like .
took out mushrooms and the green stuff using my bare hands .
yes , my bare hands .
mushrooms tasted weird too . took them all out .
left with cheese and ketchup .
chicken wing were not that stellar .
garlic bread is inedible
overall , dinner sucked .
than changed full costume .
walked barefooted to the venue . coz my shoes make my toes curl .
performed , had fun
than finale .
finale as usual , was boring . after the thing , had some dj on stage .
i dun like the remixed version of apologise =x
oh ya , vel danced wrongly .
GOODLUCK VEL . dun go all ditzy .
went home , and apparently , my ahma bought chicken burger with fries
my mum bought two chicken wings and charkwaytiao .
umm . ate one chicken wing , burger and some fries .
feel like a pig .
watched tv , hair dry , sleep :D
and today , i am going to the pretty library to study ~.~
and this an extremely STUPID post .
but i own you guys something , i guess .

No remorse , cause i still remember
The smile when you tore me apart

2008-07-22T02:58:00.000-07:00

this post aint pretty , just to tell ya .

i bleedy hate hyprocites(sp?)

like what the fucking hell . dun make me seem like the villian ,

when i was the one contributing every damn effing thing .

you dont think i have stuff of my own ?

and do you think just because i am your fren , i have to fucking hear your

whinings ?

i didnt have to . i did because i want to .

and you just effing blow me off like i am an irritance to you .

well , let me tell you .

i fucking HATE you , and no , i dont care what others say about you breaking blahblahblah , because i have never felt more free in my FUCKING sec2 life .

no more worrying about stuff that will NEVER happen to me . i dun have a dad , remember ?

no more caring about burdens that are not mine to carry .

no more losing sleep over your problems .

I AM SO OVER OUR FRIENDSHIP .

and for my sake , i am going to take it as it had never happened .

because it was a nightmare .

A NIGHTMARE THAT SWALLOWED MY LIFE .

but i killed it and got my life back .

i am happy now , happier than before .

HOPE YOU CHOKE ON YOURSELF , DAMNIT .

ok , i am done raging :D

you may call me selfish , but that's who i am

i dont care anymore ok ?

i was so fucking tired solving her problems .

but i am done with them .

i have my life back , and i am going to live it to the fullest .

WITHOUT HER :D

tata<3>

2008-07-14T03:59:00.000-07:00

MY BLOG IS REALLY DEAD .
but what can i do >.>

2008-07-02T02:16:00.000-07:00

rage + emo .
not a very pretty combination , i can tell you .

When i say i am sorry
Can you forgive me ?
When i say i will always be there
Will you believe , will you believe in me

2008-06-13T22:49:00.000-07:00

1. What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?

Primary School Friend ;)

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?

It usually dies on me . ;(

3. What happened at 10:00 am today?

Sleeping... i am a pig . lolls .

4. When did you last cry?

cant remember . not impt anyways ;)

5. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?

nothing . i dont like peanut butter .

6. What do you want in your life right now?

I wanna write like a pro ;(

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?

umbrella . ella . ella . eh . eh . eh .

8. Whats your favorite thing to have on your bed?

books/writing materials

9. What bottoms are you wearing?
SHORTS ;)

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?

I HAVE ALOT . which one are you referring to ?

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
NADAHHHS .

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?

dont think so ...

13. What was the last movie you went to see?

STEP UP 2 . moose<33

14. What are you proud of?

my commitment to things i really want

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
too lazy to check

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?

some FOB song ? most likely

17. Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
chAel .

18. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?

it says , and i quote : ahma gt buy ur duck ricee . from ; my MUM .

19.What time did you go to bed last night?

7AM

20. Are you currently happy?

nope . alittle moody .

21. Who gives you the best advice?

GOD ! and my friends too .

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?

GROSS .

23. Who did you talk on the phone with last night?

my friend . i totally was rude towards her .

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
my plotting . i think it sucks

25. What/who was the last thing to make you laugh?
cant remember

26. Do you wear toe socks?

nope ! i like my socks just fine .

27. Who is the last person you missed a call from?

(no number)

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?

NADAHHHHHS .

29. What annoys you most in a person?

if the person like , puts people down all the time and think that they are POPULAR , when they are not .

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?

MY TEDDYBEAR *.*

31. Have you ever done cocaine?

nope . and never will

32. What is the colour of your room?
lilac and pale pink

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?

i would had kill her for a million ;)

34. Do you believe in the saying "talk is cheap"?

YES ! i think written words convey(sp?) more .

35. Who was the last person to lay in your bed?

IT WAS NOT ME . it was sister ;)

36. Who was the last person to hug you?

cant keep track . i get hugs on a daily basis .

37. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?

it's private . SHHH . *winks*

38.Do you have a life?

ya . i am typing this . which proves i am still alive . and to be alive , you need to have ... a LIFE ! unless you are some loser . than i am speechless :)

39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't?

yup . i have very realistic dreams . scared the fuck out of me

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?

because it caught my interest the first time i heard it . its SOO my type ;)

41. Who was the last person you saw in person in your dream?

Spiderman o_O

42. Last time you smiled?

Yesterday!

43. Have you changed this year?

I think so . i am much nicer now ;)

44. What are you listening to right now?

Me ? my blog song . ;)

45. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?

talking , no . MSNing , yes

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?

CLOSE ! as if o_O
47. Is there a quote you live by?

"Try , try and try again ." , "If all else fails , try again ;)" , "Keep trying till you hit the spot"
48. Do you want someone you can't have?

NADAHHHHS . i am nice , remember ?

49. Have you ever played an instrument?

RECORDER ! ;) i am good at it ... i think
50. Whats the worst idea you've had this week?

i never have bad ideas ;) all bad ideas are turned into plots for my fiction , and it becomes a nice little idea ;)
51. What do you think is most attractive about the opposite sex?
eyes/body/gentlemanly-ness . 'nuff said

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?

i dont have one .
53. What song describes your love life?

empty - the click five . cliche , i know .
54. Does the person you like know you like them?

i dont like anyone . except my teddybear
55. Who always makes you laugh?

The clique and my munchkin and dumpling <33

56. Do you speak any other languages other than english?

Like durhhs . CHINESE =x

57. Are you a blonde?

If you count random strands of golden hair , yes .
58. What's your middle name?

I dont have one . GOH RACHAEL . first and last name only

59. What are you doing tomorrow?

EMO-ing . most likely .
60. Who is your best friend?

The clique ! and munchkin and dumpling

61. Who will you choose to die with?

me , myself , i :)

62. Where have you been today?

nicole's house . thats all .

63. What games do you play often?

AUDITION ;) and "what-song-should-i-emo-to" game
64. Who are you missing right now?

my friends .
65. If you've to choose between friends & love, who will you choose?

FRIENDS .unless the guy in question is hot . umm . lolls .
66. What are you doing right now?

MSN-ing with munchkin and finding blog skin .
67. Which primary school are you from?

PEIYINGPRIMARY .

68. Name 3 colours that you like.

Pink , Purple , Orange . They all clash ==

69. What emotion do you like to show?

o_O

70. What is life to you?

God's gift . ohh . and enjoying every special moments :)

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?

I would , emo for a long long time , and just umm ... emo the trouble away

72. Who did you last chat with in msn today?

MUNCHKIN :)

73. Which model of phone do you use?

Nokia 6233 . i want Nokia 7900 Crystal Prism . PRETTY !! ;(
74. Which month are you born in?

NOVEMBER !! . scropio ftw . we are mysteiorus and alluring :)
75. How are you feeling right now?

MOODY . I WANT NEW PHONE :(
76. What is the time now?

8.59pm
77. Where are you now?

HOME ==
78. What colour did/would you use to dye your hair?

RED . redheads are KEWL .
79. Do you have a contact lens?

NADAHHHHHHS .

80. {personal} What do you do when nothing goes your way?

EMO FOR A LONGLONG TIME ! and try till it goes MY way . :)

Instructions : Remove 1 question from the above, and add in your own personal question, then tag 10 people in your list. List them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their tagbox that he/-she has been tagged.Names being canceled means they done.

TOOLAZY :(

2008-05-30T01:55:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY PRETTY LITTLE WENMIN<3
you are like , fourteen !
enjoy your day .
<3

2008-05-25T20:05:00.000-07:00

HEY PEOPLEE .
back from nanjing .
one word : SUCKED .
shall post about it after i uploaded the photos .
i make it sound so serious ==
never mind .
found a nice new song :)
somehow the lead singer sounds that bit like hannah-knows-who .

Artist: Every Avenue

Song: Where Were YouHome for the weekend,
Looking for a good time;
Of all the numbers you end up calling mine.
Ready or not , I think I’ll give this a shot.
I should know better than to
Give her what she wants.
I picked her up and she was three-forths gone.
She passed out before we even got to talk.
All I want to know is:
Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.
Back to where we left off, baby.
“How you been and what’s been new with you lately?”
Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround.
You build me up just to let me down.
Down!
Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.
Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround,
Just forget it, just forget it.

2008-05-14T02:44:00.001-07:00

got some results back today

english : 70/100 A2

literature : 72/100 A2

chinese :65/100 B3

geography :63/100 B4

tears threaten to fall .

: (

very very disappointed in myself

shall listen to MCR and emo for a long long time .

so long .

2008-05-09T01:44:00.000-07:00

there's a post below this .

i was in love with this song first time i heard it =/

METRO STATION - SHAKE IT

Let's drop!

Yeah, come on

I'll take you home

If you don't leave me at the front door

(Leave me at the front door)

Your body's cold

But girl, we're gettin' so warm

And I was thinking of ways

That I could get inside (Get inside)

Tonight you're falling in love

Let me go now

This feeling's tearing me up

Here we go now

Now if she does it like this

Will you do it like that?

Now if she touches like this

Will you touch her like that?

Now if she moves like this

Will you move her like that?

Come on, shake, shake

Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake

Shake, shake, lets shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, lets shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, lets shake it

Shake, shake, Shake, shake, lets shake it

Your lips tremble

But your eyes are in a straight stare (In a straight stare)

We're on the bed

But your clothes are laying right there

And I was thinking of places

That I could hide (I could hide)

Tonight you're falling in love

Let me go now

This feeling's tearing me up

Here we go now

Now if she does it like this

Will you do it like that?

Now if she touches like this

Will you touch her like that?

Now if she moves like this

Will you move her like that?

Come on, shake, shake

Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake

Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, lets shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, lets shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, lets shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, lets shake it

I saw you dancing

And I couldn't get you off my mind

I could tell that you could tell

That I was taking my time

But I was thinking of ways

To get you to stay tonight

Body's shaking

Tell me off so I can turn off the lights

Now if she does it like this

Will you do it like that?

Now if she touches like this

Will you touch her like that?

Now if she moves like this

Will you move her like that?

Come on, shake, shake

Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake

Shake, shake, lets shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, lets shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, lets shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, lets shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake,

Shake, shake, shake it (shake, shake, shake it)

2008-05-09T01:28:00.000-07:00

exams are finally over =/
actually they were over like , two days ago =x
but oh well , we shall not notice small details like that .

SCIENCE
umm . i can safely say i am going to fail so badly :(
half the questions stumped me . my answer were all so short .
i am a goner . for sure
signnns .

MATHS
i can also safely say i am going to fail this too .
half the question stumped me . not half , alittle lesser ==
and i didnt finish .
this is the THIRDDD paper i didnt finish , i am getting tired of this ==

ART
the exam hall was cold during art .
was freezing with my jacket on .
cold until very hard to fall asleep ==
was like COLDD . need more jacket cold .
finished in one hour half .
my oil pastel totally sucked .
bitch .

AFTER ART
went to NANJING skit practice .
mrs wong made as practice the theme song thing .
was kind of fun , in this reallly twisted way =/
than she left , and mrs goh came , translated the skit to chinese
with much difficulty .
mrs goh chinese is pro one lo ==
she should become a chinese teacher too .
genius teacher .
THAN ...
went to city hall to meet the other peeps .
they boarded the train at orchard .
tried singing the theme song to them .
couldnt do it .
highly embarrassing .
went to eat jacks place .
ate chicken cutlet again ==
wenmin has this big big piece , while jan and mine were kinda puny .
BIAS WAITRESS .
mehhs .
i prefer the jacks placeat causeway ==
dunno y .
hannah put ketchup in the icecream ==
ok ...
but not as weird as me putting salt in my porridge , at home .
I WIN . HANDS DOWN =X
ok , maybe not ==

SLACKING LIKE CRAZYY . shall do the art thing during the weekends .
no mood to draw
not after my art was diasterific ... T_T
shall wallow in selfpity now ...

2008-05-08T17:22:00.000-07:00

1)At what age do you wish to get married?

mid-twenties , unless the guy is really hot =x no , i did not say that. : D

2)Who is more important to you? Friend or boyfriend?

FRIENDS <3>

3)Who is the person you trust the most?

umm ... does my tattybear count o__O if not , the clique PEOPLE <3

4)Do you think you have enough confidence?

NO :D and yes , i am saying that , smiling .

5)If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

become a billionaire . yes , i AM materalistic . sue me : D

6)Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?

NO .

7)What is your goal for this year?

SLIM DOWN MORE ! i will lose weight !

8)Do you believe in eternity love?

depends who the guy is .

9)Describe your life in two words.

BORING;CRAZY(contradictions ==)

10)What feeling do you love most?

EMO-ness. i get tired when i am happy .

11)What are the requirements from you of your other half?

can cook;romantic and umm ... loves me most ? =x

12)What feeling do you hate the most?

unloved

13)Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

only those i care about . =x

14)when is your happiest moment?

when i am surronded by peeps who love me : D

15)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

my friends . the one that really care : D

16)Who cares for you the most?

MY FRIENDS <3>

17)Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.

HANNAH : crazy;LOVABLE;nice;CARING;fan . wenmin : CRAZY;fun;ENTHU;racist(=x);CLEVER

18)What have you regretted doing in your whole life?

trusting some people that CANNOT be trusted(in primary schol --)

19)what will you do when you're sad?

hide in room , offs light , listens to emo music like MCR , and get even sadder ==

20)Do you think life's a straw? Yes, then hit your left ear/No, then hit your right ear.

DUDE . how about i hit your ear : D

Instruction: Remove one question and add in another of your own.

EXTRA QUESTIONS :

who do you think is the bitchiest person ALIVE?

CHEEWENMIN . HAHAHA . in a good way ==

what was the horny - est song you heard ?

HORNY ==

Tag 8 people and tag them on their tagboard.

no thanks : D

2008-04-30T20:18:00.000-07:00

listen to it =D its on my music column o_O

Forever The Sickest Kids - She's A Lady lyrics
I'm in love with the girl I hate
She enjoys pointing out every bad thing about me.
I'm in love with a critic and a sceptic, a traitor
I'd trade her in a second.
She's a backseat driver, a drama provider
An instant update of the world.
She's a first class liar, a constant forgetter.
(She's attractive but bitter)
Did you scream enough to make her cry?
Did you turn around, turn around
Baby, don't return to me
If you think that I'm not worth your time.
She's a lady and ladies shouldn't be messed with.
She's a lady and ladies shouldn't be messed with.
Take off your shoes, come in the room
And baby, let's try not to argue.
Turn out the lights, turn on the radio
And how can we fight when I'm too busy loving you?
I'm too busy loving you
I'm too busy loving you.
Did you scream enough to make her cry?
Did you turn around, turn around
Baby, don't return to me
If you think that I'm not worth your time.
She's a lady and ladies shouldn't be messed with.
She's a lady and ladies shouldn't be messed with.
Here I am, there you go again (again)
And we will not ever be eighteen again (again)
And I'm worn out of fighting and every night you leave crying
And I could use some time
And here I am, and there you go again (again)...
So here I am and I leave
And I'm waiting for you, waiting for you.
Come back, come back to me
And I'll take you gladly and I'll take you in again.
Did you scream enough to make her cry?
Did you turn around, turn around
Baby, don't return to me
If you think that I'm not worth your time.
Did you scream enough to make her cry?
Did you turn around, turn around
Baby, don't return to me
If you think that I'm not worth your time.
She's a lady and ladies shouldn't be messed with.
She's a lady and ladies shouldn't be messed with

2008-04-30T19:45:00.000-07:00
i shouldnt be posting >.>
what with the exams and all .
BUT oh well >>
its labour day today <3
which means no school which simply means no exams .
studying science sucks >.>

well . literature was .. ok .
i didnt finish . RAWRRS .
i left the last paragraph for ladyMACBETH .
she sucks, like hell lot.
i tried doing question two, found it super hard,
than crush the paper and do question two.
siao one ==

chinese was chem >.>
i didnt know what the comprehension were talking about .
and SOME people can still say it was easy.
SIAO ONE RAWRR .
was super tired when doing the paper. got one of the questions,
was lying on the table , closing my eyes .
than i wrote .
woke up after 5mins , stare at paper for 5mins.
than noticed was writing in english ==
super slow can.
managed to finish the paper , but think will score very badly .
hannah rolled her dice for the mcqs ==
i am in awe .

geography .
DAMNN . i didnt finish again.
why do i have this thing about not finishing my paper.
paper was ok, studided a little , so could anser most of the question
world map part was hard.
i was like . sahara desert ? sounds like a africa place to me ==
than amazon forest sounded american ... lolls .
the mountain range i jus put the one that i knew.
which was the one starting with H .
lolls . super retatrded lo.

overall , guess can pass ba , but not pass goodly.
LOLLS .
ANYWAYS , jiayou for the rest of the MYEs >.>

2008-04-27T22:19:00.000-07:00
the lyrics are alittle ... but the song is nice ... haha

Blue Jeans lyrics
She's the kind of girl you bring home to your mother
She looks good in blue jeans even better under covers
She's a devil in bed between the sheets
Ask her if she's a saint and she'll get down on her knees and pray
Yeah yeah yeah

I can't be hiding no more trying ta catch my soul in a stolen red Camaro flyin' so far
Drunk drivin' trees are swinging by
I can't decide why she's on my mind
I can't be trippin' while trying and I can't find the truth
While another man tries to understand you
But he can't be wrong 'cause he's always right
Raise your hands it's time to fight

She's the kind of girl you bring home to your mother
She looks good in blue jeans even better under covers
She's a devil in bed between the sheets
Ask her if she's a saint and she'll get down on her knees and pray
Yeah yeah yeah

Grab something and go 'cause I can't decide
While I'm planting the seeds growin' in your mind
I can't be picking up things from all the bad, two years running
I'm gunning for the future fast
Pick yourselves up, decide why we're carrying on with guns and knives
Can't you tell that everything's wrong
But she's coming out and she looks good tonight

She's the kind of girl you bring home to your mother
She looks good in blue jeans even better under covers
She's a devil in bed between the sheets
Ask her if she's a saint and she'll get down on her knees and pray
Yeah yeah yeah

2008-04-27T22:11:00.000-07:00
This , my new and revamped BLOG o_O
i was bored so i did this.
thanks for your undivided attention.

I am using this skin beause my first reaction when i saw this guy was
HE LOOKS HOTTER THAN BALTHEIR
and thus, he is now my seocnd fav final fantasy character .
He is still nameless though. His face was in this trailer thing.
OH, and he's cute.
like cute cute cute.
what with the hair and red sparkling eyes.
now, i am swooning.
Dont sound like i am ? OH WELL .
its jus a matter of perspective(sp?)
tsktsk.